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Well, something significant happened. I came out to my mom on Wednesday.
I was too cowardly to do so in person so I emailed her. She has since spoken to me about it several times. She doesn't want to believe it and really doesn't believe it, but really there's little I can do to change that. I feel like a great weight has been lifted, but I'm terrified. What could result from this? My mind is all muddled right now, so I'm just gonna end it here if I may. Wish me luck! |
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Perhaps she's the one who's delusional, she wants to believe that you were joking. This isn't something that most people can accept in a couple days, it will likely take weeks. Just keep reaffirming to her what you are and everything will fall into place. ^^
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Well, stuff happened today. My dad started yelling at me again and I temporarily lost the will to live. I started saying my goodbyes in texts to my friends, then my dad cut off the Internet because I was grounded so a conversation involving me saying goodbye ended abruptly. One friend called 911.
The police came with an ambulance, and I was taken to the hospital. We had to wait like two hours for the psychiatrist to finally talk to me. She told me to continue seeing my therapist and maybe start seeing a psychiatrist. Two hours later, they finally let me go. I missed the 50th anniversary Doctor Who special. It was upsetting. So my parents know I'm suicidal now, which is the opposite of fun. I wonder how life will change from now on... Last edited by Tarellethiel; November 23, 2013 at 06:58:33 PM. |
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It's been a loooooong time since I posted here.
I had a bit of a depression scare that led to the school getting involved and sentencing me to intensive after-school therapy, about 3 hours a day five days a week. That's why I've been slow with my Gym, which I apologize for. I have very little time to do things weekdays. However, the therapy place is understanding of my condition and I'm improving, although gods know how my family will handle that part of the news. They won't approve of my sharing that with the therapy staff. |
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This is an incredibly tough situation but please don't ever lose the will to live, as there are and always will be millions of things to live for. I know its easier said than done but you should have more confisence in who you are! Everyone is equally special and unique regardless of what society has to say and that's the truth!
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A few months ago I started talking to my cousin. She's a little younger than me and we see each other relatively often because she doesn't live very far from my location, but we never really talked. When we started to, we became fast friends. She was incredibly supportive of me and was helping me make plans to both deal with my current situation and try to improve it. She shared with me some LGBT problems of her own, and I did my best to help.
Then she came out to her parents, as bisexual. They reacted worse than mine did to my transsexualism. She sent me one more text saying little more than it went badly, and has avoided me since. She hasn't spoken to me. Something must have happened. She's very sensitive, and I fear her parents terrified her into silence. I'm not sure what to do, or if I can do anything. In brighter news, with the help of friends I've started to explore my feminine side. I'm working on my voice and learning about things like makeup and whatnot. I'm enjoying it, but some things still haunt me. I fear for my cousin. And, of course, I can't express any femininity when my parents are around for fear of punishment. Last edited by Tarellethiel; January 7, 2015 at 12:44:08 PM. |
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I don't get why people need to put people in boxes, if your familiar with phycology you'll have a better idea of what I'm talking about. I can understand a little what it's like but that's secondary experience, both my dad and to a greater extent my brother have trouble with the idea of homosexuality, I am hetrosexual so I haven't had to deal with it but it's interesting to see their reaction when I say I'm going to hang out with Cat. I certainly hope that your better able to get your parents to understand that it is the reality of how things really are.
I do hope that things are alright with your cousin again. It's hard not being able to talk to someone who is helping you cope with people who refuse to accept this is how it is. |
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